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Sunday, April 24, 2005
Back here to update.
Saturday:
Went to visit tsuhaw at the hospital, he broke his arm.
Hmm...quite alot of ppl went. more den 10 if im not wrong.
On the same day, he discharged too.
Yea..so after tt went off.
All went seperate ways.
I went off wif huiyi, agnes, li chien and teresa i tink..not sure of their name.
But i know them lah.
Eh..went to jurong entertainment to have lunch.
Ate Long John Silver and den after tt walked awhile and went home.
But i didnt went home.
Went for BBQ.
Wif my sis, benson, weiquan, ken, tony and his gf, shu ching and his bf.
Yep, the place we bbq-ed shall not be revealed..
Lol. benson doesnt allow me to say whr.
We had fun though.
If more ppl were thr, thr wuld be more fun.
Hmm..the meat is quite tasty, cos of the marination.
Benson marinated all the meat using 1 bottle of red wine.
Of cos it wuld be tasty..
LOL.
Hmm..i bbq-ed for them to eat.
I always enjoy making food for others to eat.
It's my passion.
So it's been my childhood dream since young.
To be a chef, open a restaurent of my own.
Well, i mus be day-dreaming man.
It wuld be tough to open a restaurent of my own.
Well, everyone has their own dream.
So to be a chef is mine.
LOL ;)
Alrite. so after bbq-ing..went up to benson's or his sis' condo.
Played Playstation.
Played 'winning eleven' (soccer) and a racing car game.
Both was fun indeed.
The racing car one was nice, it's like 'fast and the furious'.
Very cool. Punkish.
Hmm...so went home after tt.
Took cab and reached home at bout 12 am.
Well, i wuld say i enjoyed myself on saturday.
Hmm...
Sunday:
TOTAL BORE !
LOL.
Nth to talk abt.
Once again quarrelled wif my family.
Cause of some stupid reasons.
Im sick and tired of it.
Very.
I've been hitting my fist against the wall these few days.
LOL.
On friday, me and huiyi was like hitting our fist against the wall throughout the journey to WM.
For no special reason.
Jus hitting for fun.
But somehow i got hooked on to it.
It's painful.
But the pain will only be awhile.
Morever u'll feel something great after the pain.
The feel is undescribeble.
LOL.
Knuckles is painful.
Now i noe how to vent my anger on.
I noe.
I shall hit my fist against the wall.
Haha.
Forget it.
Tmrw's sch. and mid-yr's coming.
Have to wrk hard.
Gonna wrk my ass off.
I'll try to refrain myself frm using the com tt much.
Mid-year's coming. and no-play.
Tt's all.
See ya..
`peace out*
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Green Day's new video is coming out soon.
It's 'Wake me up when september ends'.
Very nice song.
Very touching.
It's a story continued frm JOS.
On the other hand, it's also abt Billie's father who past away during september.
So here are a few scenes of the new video.
Enjoy ;)
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
Was out for the whole day today.
Cause my relatives frm indonesia came.
So i was kinda like a tour guide for the day.
Hmm..
Morning..brought them to IMM.
The nearest and largerst mall near my house.
Eh..
So walked there..and found out tt thr was a sale at world of sports.
50% off all items.
In a coincidence, my cousin wanted to buy a pair of sports shoe.
So he found it and bout 3 pairs.
Nike and DaDa.
Lol..
My mum bought a pair of adidas shoe too..
Was laughing all da way.
Her shoe size was 4.
It's very very small.
Looked like a child's shoe.
But the pattern is nice lah.
Haha. x)
Aights, so walked around.
My cousin was looking for an electric guitar.
Or it's accersory.
Im not sure.
So searched around IMM, culdnt find it.
I remembered tt westmall have a shop selling guitars or a sch.
No idea.
So maybe tmrw bring him to see them.
After tt, they bought some watch and den wanted to go sentosa.
But it was raining quite heavily.
So didnt go in the end.
Went back home to rest.
Rest for bout an hour.
Den went out again.
For dinner.
At the turf city.
No idea whr it was at,my parents bought us thr.
We're finding a restaurent, the seafood one.
But cant find it.
So ate steamboat+bbq instead.
Lol.i always enjoy eating steamboat.
Haha. x)
Ate till 10 plus.
Den went home.
Tmrw will be another day for me.
Bringing them to town.
Together wif my mum and sis.
Shop. Shop. Shop.
Well, my relatives are always generous.
Most prob will get something for myself tmrw. x)
Haha.
Shall not be greedy.
I'll buy things using my own money.
Hmm..
Finally had time to free my mind.
Guess tt's bout all.
It's mid nite alr..
Haha..
12.40 to be exact.
Night.
`peace out*
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Had fun during pe today.
Same, we played netball today, but we used the basketball post.
Hmm, first match was, the guys and the girls same team.
Well, i scored few balls. cus only the girls were allowed to score for the first 5 or 10 mins.
Yea, so managed to score.
Hmm. once again, my team won.
Victory.
Next, we played boys vs boys and girls vs girls.
We're grouped according to houses.
So Mohegan was wif lakota and cherokee.
I was in Mohegan.
My team was alright.
So had team work wif jocelyn and xiaoqing.
Our team work was good.
Haha.
So we won at last.
Thanks to jocelyn, she helped alot.
Haha.
So we won in the end.
I've got no idea wad's the final score.
Haha.
Was busy concentrating on da game.
Game was tough.
Was panting trough out.
Haha.
Hmm...
Well, victory was ours once again.
My team once again.
Mohegan+Lakota+Cherokee.
Haha.
Shall not be proud.
Victory.
My another motive to blog bout these is to forget bout my troubles.
Trying to keep it a 'happy' post.
I am changing.
I guess i should not have made a public comdenation on my family.
I feel bad.
I feel guilty.
Cause maybe my family wasnt tt bad.
But i described it till so badly.
Sigh.
Forget it.
Also, thanks alot to those who talked through me.
And no one noes.
There's only 2 person who talked me through.
They're Hui Yi and Jason.
Thanks alot guys.
I appreciate tt.
But.
I am alright.
Thanks once again.
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
Well, as can be seen, it's a brand new skin. plus a new tagboard.
I am sick and tired of my own skins, so searched for a long time. till i found this.
Though it's still Green Day, im still loving the skin.
Took this skin frm this person. i admire all her skins. it's all very nice.
I've left her credits on the 'Links' page.
Comments for this skin please.
Well, i've really realise i have split identies. At home and school.
I am a totally different person frm school and home.
Well, i may be the cheerful, playful girl in sch.
I can also be the sucky, quiet, silent, depressed, giving fucked up attitude at home.
I really really dunno which is the true self of me.
I feel bad.
I feel out.
They make me feel like im the black sheep.
I dun wish to be the black sheep.
In school, im a totally different person.
I feel happy.
I try to be cheerful.
I try not to give attitude to others.
But i guess, all these while, im jus faking it.
The true self of me is behind it.
I've been wearing a mask to sch?
I guess so.
But no one noes.
Nobody reads my blog.
So no one noes.
And i dun wish anyone to noe.
They might though im some kind of freak.
But even if they noe, they might jus think this is jus a made-out story.
But sorry, this isnt.
I speak to my frens in sch differently.
I speak to my family differently.
Really, i am a completely different person frm sch and home.
I fear home.
I dunno why.
The motto goes, "Home is where your heart is".
How come i dun sense tt phrase?
It's really a shame tt i dun sense tt phrase.
Home seemed to be bitter to me.
I want these to change.
I want to be able to feel that phrase.
I guess all i could do now is work hard.
I want home.
I want my real home.
I want the sweet home i had.
Or maybe i have the sweet home.
I'll take benson's word:
When you love your family, you feel happy.
Do you write them? Do you ackownledge them?
Ask yourself this damn question.
When you feel happy, to them, for helping you in future.
Will you say you love them? Will you say you thank them?
Or when you think they did something wrong, will you scold them, will you condem them?
I know your answer, you should anwer it yourself.
And yes. i agree to him
I took back all my words.
I've straightned out my thoughts.
I love my family, millions.
All work and no play.
Will i be able to do that?
I can only ask myself that.
For all i've wrote.
I am Crying.
I really am.
I dunno why when i type these out, tears were on my eyes.
I didnt want to cry.
I don't want to.
But, yes.
I cried.
I really did.
No ones around.
I am all left alone.
I am not emotional.
But all these words are frm my bottom heart.
All i have to say is,
I feel bad.
I feel down.
I feel out.
And one thing i left to say is.
I have to change.
I will change.
For the better sake.
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Monday, April 04, 2005
Hmm..this is jus a post of my malay cousins. As i dun have much relatives in singapore cos my mum's frm indonesia and dad's frm malaysia. so i really treasure my cousins overseas and i hardly have any chance to meet them. so chinese new year or any occasions to me in singapore is a bore. So anyways, im always Proud to have Malays as my cousin. yea. my dad's bro married to a malay lady. and so i have malay cousins. =]
They're, Abang and Adik (twins, boys) - Adil and Fitri. and the youngest (girl), Nisa.
Yea. i absolutely dote them..hehes..always buying things for them. really, i dun mind. =]
But i hardly have da chance to see them, only during chinese new year whr i go back for celebration. other then tt, only the holidays i'll get the chance to go back to see them, im always begging my parents to bring me back.
Oh. and u're wondering how i communicate wif them, i speak Malay to them. yea, im still learning how to speak Malay. yea..im so proud of them coz, they noe how to speak 4 diff languages, they speak, malay, chinese[dun look down on them, they can pronounce it clearly], they speak hokkien too [alil', my uncle taught them how]..and lastly english. aint they awesome? speaking 4 diff languages. haha..
They're living at Langkawi. an island in malaysia..ooh..i mentioned b4, the scenery and beach thr is awesome. alot of tourists goes thr..
Hmm..while for my maternal side, they're all frm indonesia. which i rarely get to see them..they're all mostly indo-chinese. But they usually come to singapore..so get to see them also..=]
Lol..this is really a 'cousin' post..lol..so anyways, i got my Malay cousins photos, took them this year when i went back for cny celebration..enjoy. =]
-Adil and Fitri, eating roti canai. haha. they're twins.
- Adil and Nisa, eldest and youngest.
-Abang, Adil, he is very photogenic, he has cheeks tt i crave for. haha.
-Nisa, she has eyes tt i crave for. her eyes are big and beautiful.haha.
-It's Nisa once again, ain't she cute? haha.
-This is Nisa and my sister. Nisa looked fierce is this pic though. lol.
-And this is Nisa and me, i treasure this photo like hell. it's da only photo i took wif her.
I shall only post these. Sad, i miss them alot. wahahas.
`peace out*
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Friday, April 01, 2005
Happy April Fool !!
Hmm..today's april fool, received few pranks but didnt fall into it..hahas.i was clear tt today is april fool so i was cautious all da time..hahas..hmm...nth much to describe bout today...sch was normal, had geog test early in da morning..lol. i've got no idea how i did for tt ppr..cos ms siew was like starring at my ppr and grinning away...she told tt i need to explain mre and elaborate mre..haha. embarrased after she laughed at wad i wrote..lol..haha...nvm..pray hard tt i'll pass da ppr..=]
after sch wenta watch 'the eye 10' - 10 ways to see a ghost...lol..watched wif huiyi, we both cant believe tt we're actually watching the eye 10 instead of a comedy show..cos we've been afraid of watching horror movies..haha..but in the end we still pluck up our courage to watch it. cos we've heard comments tt this movie was not scary at all and a funny show..ya..so it's true..not really scary 'cept for a few parts..other den tt i tink the movie was mre to comedy than horror..haha..mostly in the theatre was students all wearing uniform..quite packed almost full 'cept for few rows..left after the movie, the movie was not tt nice..no story line..bad..
haha..im being a critic for movies..haha..tt's all. See ya!
`peace out*
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